Chug, Chug, Chug

We continue to chug upward and onward. Hopefully things will continue to fall into place, but if not I think I'm prepared for that. I think. Ha!

Well, since making the decision, we have both been relieved and happy. The position that I had a head's up on has opened up, and I applied promptly, but I'm sure there will be many others who also applied. It's with the same company as Sparky, so that would be great. And we found out that his company does offer adoption support, so that's a double bonus. I need to get out the manual today to figure out some numbers, but that really is wonderful. I'm super excited about it.

Next item on the list is finding a new place to live. Well, technically we've found the place, it's just to figure out if we can make it work once our lease here is done. We may have a couple months of difference between the end of this lease, and the the availability of the house. But we'll see what happens. Maybe it will work, maybe not. Our only complaint here is the lack of space. Other than that, we like it here, so we'll see what happens.

Spring is springing here, and it's been great. I think the sun has helped me maintain a positive attitude, well, that and the excitement. Have I mentioned that I'm excited? lol. Anyway, there are still some questions we need answered, in terms of agencies, but other than that we're just chugging forward.

Have a happy day!

Say a little prayer for me...

So, the past few days have been stressful. Everytime we think we have the world by the balls something pops up. And you would begin to hope that it's something positive and wonderful. Umm...not so much. So, today, the window of opportunity is opened. We're searching for solutions and determined not to give up. If you have an extra minute could you throw a little prayer in for Sparky?

'Til Later.

North...

...To Alaska! That's where my hubby is going. In approximately 12 days Sparky will depart for the North Slope. Why? He's going to work there. Is it my first choice? Absolutely not. However, a change is necessary, therefore, a change is here.

In additional job news, he's applied, interviewed, and preliminarily accepted a position with Boeing. Surprise. This position is also in Alaska. This is a permanent position. At this point we're putting it in God's hands. We've put our needs in place, and if it's not acceptable to the position, then it's simply not meant to be. End of conversation.

I have to admit. The move has me worried. We both know that we don't want to end up in Alaska. It's a nice state, it looks gorgeous, but it's a long, long way from family. Sparky knows that he wants to be in Minnesota, and well, I'm just okay with that. Though not necessarily where we are. We'll see what happens. In the meantime, absolutely nothing has been resolved by our decision. Everything is still flopping in the wind. At this point, it's just our of our hands...and in His. Just like everything else.

In other news, fall has arrived in Southern Minnesota. It's cool, the windows are open the soft, cool breeze is slipping over the window sills, and I'm ready for a peaceful, solid slumber. Too bad there's laundry to do, blogs to write, emails to catch up on, and facebook to check. And of course, Sparky's back to rub. Usually I'd brush him off and tell him that I will another night...but our night's are numbered, and there will be many in between that he falls asleep alone. So tonight, I bid adeiu and go to rub my hubby's back.

'Til later.

Seeds of Change

Things are chaniging. Everywhere. Some of those changes are freeing, exhillerating, and scary. Others are sad and tragic. But change happens whether we want it to, or not.

This past weekend we traveled to South Dakota to visit Grandma. Grandma is actually Sparky's Grandma, but I love her too, so I get to claim her. It's my right for staying married to him this long. lol. Grandma just lost Grandpa. She's sad, oh so, so sad, and she's grieving. I'm hoping that just being with her made her realize that she truly isn't alone. That even though we can't be with her all the time we keep her close in our hearts, and we love her, and miss her. I know it's not enough to fill the void that Grandpa left. They've loved eachother for a lifetime. After 69 years and 50 weeks of marriage, Grandpa said good bye. We're sad. But Grandma feels the loss in a much, much deeper way. We love you Grandma. Sometimes change breaks your heart.

Sparky's aunt J has cancer. Cancer is a beast. I hate cancer. It takes life and breath from loved ones much, much too often. J's has returned, or perhaps it never left, and we can only pray. Pray that God will be kind in her fight. Whatever He decides. Change. Sometimes it just sucks.

Grandma got a new neighbor at her assisted living facility. The new neighbor is a nun. Which means, gasp, that she's Catholic. Now, to you and I this may not seem a major defining factor of her life, or her character, but to Grandma it's foreign and it's frightening. So, now Grandma's biggest fear is the "the nun" will try to convert her. Sometimes change can make you laugh.

Sparky is looking for a new job. I think I've mentioned that before. lol. Well, he has an offer on the table. North. Far North of where we are. WAAAAAY. North. We're talking Alaska people. Sparky has yet to accept the position as he's waiting to hear on another job to the West. Wyoming. This is THE job he's been waiting for. However, he doesn't know if he'll be offered the position, and let's face it, you just can't put all your eggs in one basket. So, we wait. And make a Plan B. Change. Sometimes it's exhillerating.

My younger brother, okay, my baby brother turns 30 next month. Uff da. I'm old. So his girlfriend is throwing him a party. I'm hoping we'll be able to attend. But only time will tell, and since it's quite a distance that seperates us, we'll truly just have to wait and see. Change. Sometimes it's inevitable.

Change. It can be a lot of things. So tell me, what's changing in your world?

Up and Down Again?

So, Sparky is looking for a new job. He's been looking for a long time. Okay, so I'm sure someone out there has been looking longer, but in our lives it feels like a very loooooong time. The problem? He's looking for the perfect job. The one that will help catapult him to the next level of his career. The solution? We're not sure yet. But it may require drastic measures. Well, drastic by our standards anyway.

We live in Minnesota. We haven't always lived here. We lived in Colorado for two glorious years, and these are the years that made us who we really are, and made us realize how desperately we want to be parents. Because of the strong desire to create and nurture a family of our own, we wanted to be back in our "home" state, closer to the grandparents we were sure to create, or create again in the case of my in-laws. We moved home. Safe. To his "old" job and our "old" town.

Now that I'm finally growing comfortable with living here. Finally adjusting to the thought of this town being our hometown. We're most likely moving. And, we're most likely moving far, far away. Sparky had an interview today. Why a phone interview? The job, the "one", is in Alaska. REMOTE. ALASKA.

Now, most people's (women's) concerns would be that we would be about 300 miles from the nearest mall. 100 miles from the nearest WalMart, and in a very, very small town. Not mine. I'm petrified of not being near reputable medical care. And I'm scared to death that we won't be able to proceed with adoption.

I am infertile. That sucks. I won't be able to have a child (more than likely) without intervention. Medical intervention. Sounds fun huh? So now that we've begun to put the bio child aspect behind us, we're potentially moving to Bum Fuck Egypt. BFE. Where do you suppose the nearest adoption agency can be found if we're 300- yes 3 HUNDRED miles from the nearest mall? But alas, it's about the job. It has to be about the job. Without THE job there won't be any children, any way, any how. So, only time will tell.

I think I need to purchase some Uggs.