I've Been Thinking

Have you ever been driving along and heard a song that sparked a particular memory? Or maybe it was a feeling? An emotion? We were driving today and we were listening to a Don Williams CD. Listening to him sing of family, love and babies brought a lot of feelings and emotions to our conversation.

We both think a lot about family. We have wanted children for so long, that sometimes it feels as though it may never be a reality. But it will. I just have to have faith, and remember that it's not my timing, but God's that is important.

Brent and I didn't start out thinking that our family would be formed through adoption. I just assumed that we'd get married, and have perfect, evenly spaced babies like everyone else I knew. It took some time for both of us to realize that perfection doesn't really exist. And it doesn't necessarily apply to everyone's life. Yes, it works out beautifully for some. For me, not so much, I like to take the windy path instead.

I think adoption used to be this scary thing where babies were whisked off in the middle of the night to never know their first mothers, and their mothers were never to know them. Great strides have been made in understanding the entire adoption structure. It's no longer a cut and dried process. There are so many options, and each situation is different from the first. Great laws and processes have been put in place to help birth mothers and adoptive parents create the perfect situation for their child.

So, while we didn't start out expecting our family to be built with outside help, now I only see it as normal. How it could be. Maybe even how it should be.